Current Thoughts of the Moment

So my internet is currently down?  :s
You know when you go out and buy yourself some skin care products especially made for YOUR skin, and someone else uses it all on you and NEVER replaces it? Im sure i live with one of those... I love her to death, but she always uses my face stuff and she wont replace it.. And I never use hers.. We have completely different skin types... -.- its very aggravating..
I wouldnt care at all, if she'd just replace it..
Its very frustrating...
Like i said, my net seems to be down.. Im currently writing this post as a draft.. But do you realize how difficult it is for me to not be able to tell facebook my internet is down? And ALSO, if I cannot play my internet radio, it makes sleeping very difficult, which also.means, without internet I cannot watch Degrassi High (80's version) on netflix... My life is very stressful right now.. Lol.
On a more serious note, my mother finally got her MRI done on monday, and i am absolutely terrified to find out what is wrong. She's been having mini mild strokes every once in a while since new years eve... I dont know what is going on, and I am very, very afraid. I hope its nothing, but im fearing the worst... Thats what im mostly worried about right now... Fighting back the tears at the thought of losing my mother.. I know its drastic, but I cant help it... I dont even have kids yet, or havent even started my life yet... -.- im so very scared..

breathing ain't easy

Okay so i already forgot I had this blog.. and i'm hoping to use this for whats inside my head...

So I've been working very diligently on my inner light. Living in positivity and what not.. but lately.. it's been really, really hard for me to keep calm. Is life just trying me??? Challenging me? Cause it's not nice...

My insomnia has been acting up so badly lately, I'm not sleeping, and in turn it makes me cranky with the world... I find myself waking and not wanting to get up... but i know it's not depression. I know when those feelings are here.. I dunno Carleen was saying something about feeling a funk coming on.. I think I might be having one as well.. I'm constantly tired I'm unhappy with a lot of things.. I dunno..

It's like 5am and i'm super tired, but cannot sleep... no matter how hard i try.. i dunno, maybe i'll try to now..

xoxo

Daddy's Day

So it is father's day. and I have one of those. My daddy is an awesome dude. He's funny, and ive learned i can never really know if he's serious when answering questions for me... like he can make up any story to explain something, and say it with such conviction, you will doubt the fact that potatoes do not grow in the ground, but in fact on trees. He's that "gifted". Lol.

My daddy is cool. He's kind, considerate and knows when he should or should not say something. He's brought me up with a lot of love, and taught me a lot of life lessons, or rather, how to deal with life lessons. He taught me it's okay to cry, to feel, to be. taught me to learn from my mistakes rather than run away. And taught me, that not all men are bad men. He is the best one out of all of them.

I love my daddy, very  much, and i would move mountains for this man.

I love you very much Daddy, i hope you have a god day golfing today :D Wear lots of sunscreen! <3 <3

Love, Lindsay   - xoxo

First quick post

like any crazy person, ive decided to start this with literally 5 minutes before i have to run out the door to work, but i hope i can maintain this blog... i do miss blogging... im terrible with these things so bare with me.. :)